Bone Wide Hips


1. Do you have an ED?
I never starve myself, and I never purge, and I do not support either of these. But I have definitely struggled with binge eating disorder since I was a kid. I’m still learning to control it and not feed my emotions with sugar and butter and chocolate. I am still a work in progress. 

2. How old are you?
 I turned 24 this summer. I know, I look about 18. Now that I’m old, I love that I look so young. 

3. How do you have a flat stomach/how did you shrink your thighs?
Eating a calorie range of 1300-1700 most days and mostly whole, healthy foods to lose fat; and exercise (running, elliptical, yoga, and weight lifting, mostly) to tone up/burn calories/gain strength/improve overall health and happiness. My stomach is mostly flat because my body doesn’t store a lot of weight there. I have always had a very small waist, even at my high weight. My legs have shrunk because I USE THEM A LOT. There are no tricks. Just good, healthy living and dedication. 

4. How much do you work out?
It really varies, but on average I go the gym/yoga 3-4 days a week, always at least twice in a week. I usually do an hour of cardio at the gym (either running or elliptical or “hiking” on the treadmill at maximum incline) followed by 10-45 minutes of weights and stretching. I also live in NYC so I walk a lot, usually a minimum of 45 minute a day. And I try to do at least 10 minutes of stretching or strength training every night in my room. 

This is another question I get in my ask a lot. 

I’ve been a binge eater since I was a kid. I never played sports, but I was always really small so I never really learned good habits. I started gaining weight when I was 16, and struggled to get myself under control for years. At 18 I hit my highest weight, about 165 lbs. I’m 5’4”, and that put me at about a size 12-14. I spent the next 3 years losing the same 10 or 15 pounds over and over again. I’d start going to the gym a lot for a couple of weeks, and then stop. I’d eat better for a little while, and then give in. I would try really hard over and over again to starve myself, but I couldn’t do it - which I’m grateful for now. 

At 21, I moved to New York with my boyfriend, and I still weighed around 160 lbs, and I was still so unhappy with my body and uncomfortable in my skin. I was constantly trying to lose weight, but the biggest change came when I downloaded an iPhone app that I used to log everything I ate, and gave me a number of calories to stay below. (I used to use LoseIt, I use MyFitnessPal now.) I followed my app’s plan almost every single day for about 4 months, and over that time really learned how to eat differently and start to break my cycle of binging. In 6 months, I lost almost 30 lbs, and hit my lowest weight of 131. During that time, I wasn’t able to get a gym membership, but started going on really long walks and doing Jillian Michael’s videos. 

Soon after, I started working at an office job and moved into a building with a gym. I didn’t follow my plan as closely as I had, but started working out more. and held in the 130s for a year. After 5 years of being big, it took me a really long time to get used to my new, smaller body. Even now, I sometimes see myself as big. This January, I got whooping cough and ended up breaking my ribs from the coughing. It took me a couple of months to recover, and I was feeling really down and ended up gaining back more weight than I ever thought I would. I started this tumblr at the end of March, at 147 pounds. 

For the past 8 months, I’ve done a lot to become the healthiest I have ever been. I’ve learned to distance run, and am starting to train for a half-marathon. I’ve learned to cook and eat a lot more vegetables than I ever have in my life. I’ve taken up yoga, and try to incorporate at least a little weight training and stretching into every day. I’m definitely not perfect, and still struggle with binging way more often than I want to, but I am the smallest and fittest that I have ever been. I’m losing weight very slowly, but I am ok with that. I want to lose another 8 to 13 lbs, and can’t believe I’m so close to my ultimate goal. There were many years where I never thought I’d come this far. But here I am, wearing a size 2/4 and running 7 miles at a time and feeling GOOD about myself. 

That’s my weight story. I can’t wait to see what happens next. 

  • 0% Plain greek yogurt, 1% Cottage cheese
  • Unsweetened soy milk, skim milk
  • Baby carrots
  • Whole wheat pitas, Low-carb wheat tortillas
  • 100% Liquid egg whites, eggs
  • Frozen strawberries, blueberries, raspberries, pineapple & mangos 
  • Frozen chopped spinach, frozen mixed veggies
  • Frozen Trader Joe’s Reduced Guilt entrees
  • Shirataki noodles
  • Plum tomatos
  • Spinach, kale, red-leaf lettuce
  • Jalepenos, Banana peppers, pickles
  • Bell peppers, yellow & green squash, avocados, broccoli: whatever vegetables are on sale that week, basically
  • Light string cheese, light feta cheese
  • 40 Calorie wheat bread
  • PB 2 (powdered peanut butter)
  • Unsweetened cocoa powder, stevia powder, cinnamon
  • Canned pumpkin, beets & artichoke hearts
  • Black beans, black eyed peas, garbonzo beans
  • Apples, bananas, grapes, kiwis, tangerines
  • Canned vegetable & bean soups, miso soup packets
  • chicken breasts, ground lean turkey
  • Tofu
  • Rolled oats, Joe’s O’s cereal
  • Wheat bran, whole wheat flour
  • Trader Joe’s Soy protein powder
  • 100 calorie dark chocolate bars
  • Fat free ricotta, fat free cream cheese
  • Coffee, soy creamer
  • sugar-free maple syrup
  • Salsa, light tomato sauce, canned tomatoes
  • Raisins, pre-portioned raisin/nut trail mixes
  • Mushrooms, squash, sweet potatoes
  • Lot of spices & hot sauce, balsamic vinegar 
  • And lots of gum!

I’m constantly asked what I eat, so here’s a pretty comprehensive list of the foods I buy & make meals out of in regular rotation. I try to make most of my own meals, which is hard because I live in Manhattan and there is amazing food everywhere, so I do go out at least a couple of times a week. Any questions? 

So I put an FAQ link on my tumblr and am going to make a couple of posts with common questions. (Mostly eating & work outs)